Thursday, June 2, 2011

bad days and why i love sunflowers

some days are just bad.
 bad news, bad health, bad attitude, bad kids, bad boss, bad_______.

we each have our own battles and have experienced the empty feeling that arrives
when our hope and joy deflate after a day thats just, well, bad.
 we cry when the pool of life gets too cold.
 we worry and live in fear of the tomorrow that will inevitably approach, our stress like sharp teeth threatening to puncture our hope.
and we cry.
sometimes hard, sometimes quiet and alone.
and we sulk and pout
and let apathy rob us of moments that should be treasured, enjoyed, {lived}.

we all have days, sometimes weeks, and even months like this.
.............
{via}
rain pours, clouds multiply, wind picks up...
storms rage.

but never does the sunflower stop seeking the sun.

even on dreary days (like today) i peek out my window and see the young stalks leaning toward the small beams of light fighting to burst through the heavy gray cloud cover.

sunflowers, are resilient.

hopeful in effort and stong in stature.

what if we were seekers like our friend the sunflower?

and on the dreariest of days CHOSE to turn our face towards the cloud-covered light...
that light that we can't see but know is there.

it is that light that warms and awakens the depths of our tired soul and plants seeds of hope
that grow even the most impossible situations into something vibrant and beautiful.
..............

“We will find grace to help us when we need it.” 
Hebrews 4:16, NLT
..............
we don't have to know what lies ahead.

we can rest assured that in the midst of our storm, we will find grace.
not "can," not "should," but WILL.

...and with grace comes the strength to stay rooted firmly in faith, and like the sunflower,
the stamina to hold an unshakeable gaze steadily focused on The Son.

You will find grace to help you when you need it.





Wednesday, June 1, 2011

kai's first trip to the sea...

"The sea, once it casts it's spell,
holds one in it's net of wonder forever."
~Jacques Cousteau


  we knew Kai would love the ocean,
and have looked forward to his first visit to a place that has
always been so sacred and special to us...

he had the time of his life crawling around in the sand...

and playing with beach toys!
 we even took him down to the water, where he wanted to dive right in!
it was cold, but we let him wade in the waves....
and he got wet and turned into a sandy mess...
and kept putting pieces of the wet sand IN HIS MOUTH (of course)!
he dug, and crawled, and splashed and played so hard...
 that he crawled his dirty little body right up into mommy's lap
and drifted into peaceful sleep
to the sounds of crashing waves, seagulls and laughter.

just as he should.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

carseat chronicles.

since the birth of baby boy we really haven't traveled much. well, G has for work but me...not so much. shoot, the last time i even flew on an airplane was when i went to BRAZIL for spring break of 2009!

however, the travel miles we have logged with a newborn/toddler is certainly no small feat. it's exhausting enough just packing up to go to the grocery store, so preparing or even envisioning a trip that requires hours of travel time (carseat time) and packing to sufficiently accomodate baby needs at either a hotel or guest home is quite intimidating (prepared mom's must always pack for worst-case scenario!).

here is a sample list i'd make for just a weekend get-away:
(with something neccesary inevitably missing!)

  • bottles (several), formula, baby food (jars AND fresh in a cool-pack), quick (clean) snacks for the drive, sippy cup, bibs
  • several changes of clothes because crawling babies get dirty and ALL babies have diaper blow-outs!
  • bath stuff (baby shampoo, lotion, wash cloth, towel)
  • diapers, diapers and more diapers. wipes, diaper rash cream
  • pack-n-play AND several blankets
  • stroller
  • travel toys (just a few)
  • and something i FORGOT but will never forget again when staying in a hotel: dish soap to wash bottles!!!!
....and then I have to think about packing for myself, and by that time i'm so flustered and tired i forget things like my hair straightner, socks, a jacket, etc.

i think the actual travel time is actually easier the more newborn the babe is, because once they are independently mobile and becoming increasingly vocal it takes more effort to keep them entertained/quiet. AND newborns sleep WAYYYY more, which is ideal for travel. kai takes naps, but is definitely awake for the majority of the travel time.

but we've done it. mostly weekend trips over our beautiful native northwest region (boise, portland, wenatchee, etc.), nothing major.

it's undoubtedly tiring, but always a fun adventure.  

this most recent adventure was the most fun yet. i attest this to 10 months of "packing practice" trial and error AND the fact that, well, Kai is just starting to really enjoy new experiences!


G is working in Vancouver (WA), possibly for a month or longer. we had tenatively planned to spend the long weekend in seattle, but with the condition of my allergies/sinuses and the on-call nature of the job he's on, we both decided the best bet was for us to stay close to his job site....AND the fact that we had parents heading that direction for the weekend was even more of a deciding factor because that meant i didn't have to drive and would be free to keep the little stinker happy and occupied QUIET! (woo hoo!)

kickin' back and sippin'...
i'm happy to report that Kai did not have one SINGLE carseat tantrum/melt-down. he got close, though. twice. both towards the tail ends of the destination (enoughs enough!) but he never reached his breaking point.
why, you ask?

#1



 #2

 SUCKERS!!!!!!!

see, Kai really hasn't been introduced to any kind of non-fruit based sugars and, well, desperate times called for desperate measures. it was definitely an enjoyable experience watching him enjoy his sticky, sugary treats. he kept shoving it toward me, wanting to "share." so cute. he literally sucked them both down until i was forced to finish them off due to jagged edges. some parents may frown upon this, but ya know what? I'D I WILL DO IT AGAIN!

{almost} meltdown #2 began at the LONGEST stretch of the drive home from Portland. you know, that dreadful stretch of dry desert highway that extends from Arlington to Boardman to the Hermiston exit. bleh. i DESPISE that part of the drive! and, ofcourse Kai did too. I'd kind of hoped that he would fall asleep after we stopped and ate in Hood River, but, no. he fought and fought and fought sleep, but was quite content until the barren stretch. then i broke out the sucker, hoping that would get us home.

 the little stinker fell asleep literally right when we pulled into the Hermiston city limits.


You can learn many things from children. 
How much patience you have, for instance. 

~Franklin P. Jones

Thursday, May 26, 2011

sick day for mommy, play day for baby...

 $1 marble green bouncy ball from walmart = hours of entertainment for lil' mr.

bleh. i HATE being sick. the last two days have been a blur as my world has been clouded by a killer combo of allergies and sinus infection. super duper sucky. especially because GARY IS WORKING IN VANCOUVER and i'm single mommy status. make that SICK single mommy status. yeah, not very much fun. i think i caught it from Kai. he's just getting over it so we're both snotty messes. i'm trying my best to pull it together and nurse myself back to health so i can ENJOY the long weekend, instead of sleep off this death virus in bed....

pending G's work schedule and my immune system, we plan to spend the weekend in SEATTLE!!! it's long overdue that i give Kai a taste (ha! read on...) of my favorite US city. yeah, i'm praying, poppin' vitamin C's and slingin' back alkaselzers like nobodys business.

ANYWAY, the world does not stand still (unfortunately) when mommy's feeling under the weather. and Kai can only entertain himself in the the house for so long. so i thought today would be a good day to move his little play junglegym from his room into the backyard so he could expend some energy on that in the wide open spaces opposed to the cramped quarters of his room.

we spent almost two hours outside. i'm SO happy that Kai has decided he can handle the feel of grass on his hands, because for awhile there, he refused to crawl in the grass. well, that's now a thing of the past. he's all over the place out there. i just wish he'd stop putting everything of interest to him in his darn MOUTH. seriously, here is the shortlist of what i extracted from his chompers just in the short while we were out: rocks, dirt, bark, mushrooms, flowers, leaves, honey's toys/bones....and i don't want to know what i missed.

but on the brightside, we had lots of laughs and it felt good to absorb some vitamin d and get some fresh air (thanks, Kai!). here's some snippets of the highlight of my sick-day:





 hoping the worst of this bug/allergy attack is OVER.
here's Kai trying to get me to drink some fluids...
Question of the day:

when do babies STOP putting everything into their mouth?

oh, and any tried and true remedies for head colds? cause' i'm totally game....

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

cousins & cars: a day in the life of kai

we got to babysit this morning! it was fun...and tiring (for Mommy!). props to all those moms out there who have less than a year between kiddos. sheesh.

anyway, crazy to think that these two will be in the same grade in school.
he's already lookin' out for her....

pretty lil' Parker Jo

Kai LOVES baby PJ.
he is SO gentle with her. her little tiny foot was poking out of her little sleep sack and Kai bent down and gave it a kiss! melted my heart...

here's Kai driving his car around Parker. he has a major obsession with anything with wheels right now. this particular car, however, is his favorite (this week). the wheels make a clicking noise when they turn, which he seems to really like. he's also started making "vroom-vroom" car-like noises when he's driving his trains, planes and automobiles across the floor.

he's growing up too fast (tear).

for your viewing pleasure i've included a short clip of his newfound love of driving (turn up the volume when he gets close to the fridge and you can hear his cute car noises!):

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

outnumbered.

spending too much time with Aunt Abbey and those girl cousins...


i received this via text message tonight at work with the caption:
what a pretty little girl!

G would have a FIT if he saw this!

...thank goodness he has 3 boy cousins on his Dad's side.

(i'm sure my sisters and i are guilty of doing similar to our poor little brother, too. sorry mikey.)